I guess, this is the last post of 2010

I have nothing to do. I picked this from Imaculata's blog. She got a nice blog, don't forget to visit her :)

BOLD WHAT YOU LIKE:
1) Striped socks.
2) Winter vacation.
3) Minty breath.
4) Warm hands. 
5) Sublime.
6) Proving people wrong.
7) Sketching. 
8) Steel drums.
9) Tampons.
10) The Sims 2. 
11) Kissing.
12) Backpacks.
13) Cloudy weather. 
14) Picking out presents for people.
15) Kevin Flamme.
16) Boys. 
17) Old movies.
18) Reminiscing.
19) Mario Party.
20) Orange juice.
21) Interesting people.
22) Late-night texting.
23) Cool teachers.
24) Levi jeans.
25) The city bus. 
26) Cardigans.
27) Sneezing.
28) Drinking cold water.
29) Finding money in my pockets. (Especially when i really need it ;p)
30) Making connections.
31) Books. 
32) Bolding surveys. 
33) A clean bedroom. 
34) Collages. 
35) Meeting people. 
36) Comfortable positions.
37) Headphones.
38) Marathons.
39) Packing to go somewhere. 
40) Mascara.
41) Daydreaming. (Like always?)
42) Possibilities.
43) Ramen. 
44) Notepads. 
45) Burt’s Bees.
46) Babysitting.
47) Actually getting homework done.
48) Feeling good about myself.
49) Complimenting people. 
50) PostSecret.
51) Confiding in people.
52) Themed things.
53) T shirts.
54) Gentlemen. (Seriously, who doesn't love it?)
55) Singing harmonies.
56) Being surprised.
57) New clothes.
58) Target.
59) Long eyelashes.
60) Bright Eyes. (Oh, such a big YES for me)
61) Naps. 
62) Nicely-dressed boys.
63) Barack Obama.
64) Tweezed eyebrows.
65) Inside jokes.
66) Eye-contact.
67) Acronyms.
68) Thinking. 
69) Animals.
70) Collecting turtles.
71) Understanding.
72) Friendship bracelets. (It makes me drooling ! Haha)
73) Meaningful items.
74) Simon & Garfunkel.
75) Silly pictures.
76) Raspberries.
77) Not going to school.
78) Star Trek.
79) Reading blogs.
80) Showering away problems.
81) Worn-in shoes.
82) Paranormal televison shows. (Yeah, eventhough sometimes i'm scared)
83) Facebook chat.
84) Baked ziti.
85) Visiting my elementary school. 
86) Soft blankets. (Reminds me of 'Selimut Nana')
87) Big words.
88) Staying up late. 
89) Second chances.
90) Piggy-back rides.
91) Saying words over and over until they sound really strange.
92) Surrealism.
93) The feeling of relief after going pee. 
94) Home videos.
95) Unusual names.
96) Diving boards.
97) Smilies.
98) Cats.
99) Feeling better.
100) Considerate people.

It's 2010, peeps!

2010 is just a matter of time, few hours left and we're gonna move on to the new year! Woohoo! Here's the recap of my best moments in 2010:

1. I'm turning 16 and my friends gave my cell phone as my birthday gift which really unexpected.
2. I'm joining Clique audition for the first time and i'm failed.
3. I'm joining Heavy B.U.C.K Stylez and met a lot of amazing dancers there.
4. Farewell party with Natisa Feby Budiarta, which really sad.
5. Being the one who trusted to be XK's choir director.
6. Auditioning for Clique for the second time and i still didn't make it.
7. Being a tutor for OPS 2010-2011.
8. Crying together with tutors after ceremony.
9. Not single anymore :)
10. Having a trip to Trawas with HBS.
11. Having a farewell trip to Batu with XK.
12. Going to social class. XI IPS 4 and met bunch of crazy peoples! Haha.
13. Lost my cellphone which given at my 16th birthday (should i put it as best moments?)
14. Joining ITB International Choir Festival, Brawijaya Choir Festival.
15. Having a good time at Bandung with Sinlui Choir.
16. Joining Det-Con 2K10.
17. Auditioning for Clique and i finally made it!
18. Dancing for the first time at senior high period in front of 500+ new students as Tutor Dance Crew.
19. Learning about ludruk.
20. Got David Archuleta's The Other Side of Down Album. Yay! :D
21. Made a new blog.
22. Had a sleepover at Catrul's dorm.
23. Farewell party with our beloved bestfriend Gabriela Christa Setiawan who went to USA.
24. Making Scrapbook for Gabby.
25. Celebrating Chemmy's birthday.
26. Given Chords of Strength book by Joyacht, which supported me to have one from DBB giftings.
27. Stay up late until 2PM at PTC after mading's round up.
28. Met and getting know a lot of amazing peoples.
29. Made my first successful dessert ever!
30. Still breathing until this moment. Haha.

Yeah, there are more things that happen which i couldn't remember it all. 2010 is 2010, we're doing to move on 2011. I just wish that it'll be a better year for all of us. No more suffering, no more tears, no more depressing, but joy. Last, HAPPY NEW YEAR to all the people in this world and to you who read my post! New year, new you, new spirit, new luck! :D

2010 Up and Down

2 days left and we're gonna left thousands memories on 2010. Many things happened this year, there's some happy and exciting moments, a lot of drama and sad moments, up and down. I remembered how Eddie Tripleks said that this year was like roller coaster and i do feel the same thing. I mean, there's a lot of unexpected things happened to you, it's like yesterday you can eat a very expensive salmon dish at luxurious restaurant and the next day, you can't even eat a bite of bread.

I've trough quite enough of hard times this year which make me a little bit devastated, i didn't think that this is the best year for me, although i've experienced several happiest moment in my life, but over all, i didn't think that 2010 is my year. But trough a lot of hard times like this, i've learned a lot of lesson especially how to be strong. I used to be a crybaby, who always cry everytime i can't solve my own problems, but now i've learned how to not cry everytime i have a problems and i guess i can handle it. 

I also learned many things about friendship and relationship. I found that a good friendship didn't really care about differences between both, but things that matter is how you could build such an understanding between you. In my opinion, a true friendship is never hiding something and never make yourself like an exclusive person. It's just gonna break your friendship. Friendship is important, but the most important is how to keep your friendship alive and how you keep it last forever. About relationship, umm.. i learned that it needs more understanding, trust and honesty. I mean, if you don't have those criteria. BUSH!! it won't last too long. You can say that i have a great 8 months with him, yes, it's really great! eventhough he's really busy and i can't hide that sometimes i really want to spend more time with him, sharing stories, having a nice conversation, laugh together. But once again, understanding. I always try to not add more pressure in his life. I see myself like, i was here to make him feel better if he trough some hard times, i was here to listen to his problem, i was somebody who he can share his happiness with and i wasn't here to add more pressure to his life. I try to be as understanding as possible, although people might see me too indifferent or something, because i was like "Ok, it's ok if he's not here. I doesn't matter. He's busy now". Ok, actually that's because i didn't want to push him to add most of his time for me, so i just wait and i guess it makes me be a little more mature.

However,  2010 is going to be our past and i wish 2011 would be a better year for all of us for learning and experiencing something, to live life, and build our personalities. I feel grateful to share this to all of you. Haha.

Pauline

Blogpost for David Archuleta

First of all, i want to ask you, do you love blogging? I do love blogging so much, inspired by you *oh, so random* Anyway, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, DAVID! Seems like it was yesterday when i watched you on TV, standing on American Idol's stage and you were just 17 at that time. I remembered how you sang "Stand By Me" with your maroon t-shirt and the next day you're on the final next to David Cook. You used to be nobody, but now you've change into someone who changes a lots of people's life with your music. You influenced so many people and you stay humble and never change like the old David, okay.. except your confidence, it keeps getting better and better :) Thank you so much for being such an inspiring person in my life and many peoples life. I'm looking forward to meet you soon, i always wanted to, but i can't. All i do is keep wondering how and when and why i haven't met you *singing My Kind Of Perfect. LOL*

Once again, happy birthday! I wish you all the best for your life, career and health. Have a blast! Enjoy your time with family and friends. Arch Angels in this whole world love you and always here to support you♥ God Bless.


Oh! and also, Merry Christmas and Happy new year to you, your family and all of your crew, David! Hope this brings tons of Joy to your life :D

By the way, here's another gift from Indonesian Arch Angels, hope you enjoy! :D

P.S: I really hope you read this. AMEN.

Elizabeth Paulina Dwi Putri

Surabaya, Indonesia.

Twitter: @artsyPo

Watch Out! Poppin' Zone!

Happy sweet 17 dear Natalia Christina Setiawan aka P-Nut! Thanks for being my loyal blog reader! Haha. I wish that i could join today's Christmas event with HBS and join them to gave you surprise, but this stomach-ache is killing me. All i can do is make those birthday picture for you and i really hope you like it. Hahaha. I always wish you all the best in every way, be a better person and better dancer of course! Woot woot! I didn't expect that you grow up so fast, my dear *puke*. LOL!!! Oh! one more! i wish you could spell the letter "R" better and don't be so mean with me! Hahaha. Happy for you Kacang! :D

Merry Late Christmas

Merry late christmas to all of the people in the world. May the joy and peace always stay in our hearts. Merry Christmas! :D 

I had a lot of fun yesterday with HBS after mass at St. Jacobs Church. They were performing for charity and that's pretty good. I also met Icha there :) After performing we went to PTC, just hang out for a while. I also got special gift from abang Patrianata and ai Melly bertopi. Haha. I really love those gifts. REALLY love it! Thank you so much for the christmas gift :)


I also want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Ariane Limanjaya, Natasha Njotowidjojo and especially Stefani Natalia Hendrata which turning 17 this year *also congratulation for you to reach the first parallel for social classes*. Happy birthday to all of you, wish you all the best in every way and have a blast. I really glad to know you all :)

We call him Alvin

I was browsing images at google images when i found these:

Awwww! That reminds me of Alvin, my dog. I don't know where he is now, maybe he already die. I've lost him. Poor Alvin :(

My Mom bought me this pug race puppy on 2003. Alvin was just about 3 months at that time, he's really cute with his brown fur and pity face. I really fall in love with him. She bought me this because i felt really alone at home, i have nothing to play with except my Barbie doll.

Few months later, we found out that my Mom was pregnant. Afraid that she would got toxoplasma disease from this dog (yeah, they said that cats, dogs and birds fur could be the causes) , my family finally decided to leave him at my cousin's house. I can still visit him everytime i want. But, things that happened wasn't like what i expected, at my cousin's house he didn't cared well. Fell pity for him, My Mom decided to move him into her friend's house. Luckily, she has the same race of dog, so we also think about mating them. But dogs, they know how to chose the right mate, Alvin didn't want to marry her dog because she was too fat. My Mom's friend try to keep take care of him, but one day Alvin try to run from her house and that's it. He is lost. Until now. I'm crying all day but he never back :(

Oh i just miss him so much right now..

His Bio's

Name: Alvin von Haus Luwana

Born: August 23, 2003

Race: Pug

And the result is..

I didn't expect what i've achieved after this past 6 months at Social Class. Today is the day of report book distribution. And, although i didn't get the parallel but i'm pretty satisfied with my ratings. I've passed all my ratings and i guess my rating increased a lot than at the tenth grade. Feeling fad, i asked my Mom to ask Mr. Budi, my homeroom about my rank at the class. And you know what? What a surprise?! I got the 3rd Place! I was like "Gosh.. i can't believe it!". Because of that, now i'm getting really excited and enthusiastic about next semester. I'll promise to myself to study harder. I have a goal to be the parallel and i know i can, it seems really close to me. With this kind of passion, i believe i can! Study harder, work harder, i want to prove it to everybody that eventhough i had a lot of activities, i also good at academic achievement and i'm gonna make my Mom proud of me. 

By the way, i got the latest edition of MITREKA. Mitreka is my school's magazine which published every six month. To be honest, i could say that this is the worst cover of Mitreka i've ever read. Yeah, i didn't mean to be cocky, but that's the truth. The articles getting really boring now. And, what the heck? there's my stupid photos doing "Keong Racun" dance on Candy's school president campaign on one of their articles? Such a shame and creepy.

Happy Mumsy's Day♥

Tomorrow is a mother's day. I want to post this for tomorrow, but i think i'm better post it now, because tomorrow i'm going to post about my reports card result. So freaky. 

Anyway, 

"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE HAPPIEST MOTHER IN THE WORLD." 

Especially, my Mumsy who already gave birth to me and raised me until this second. I love you so much! You've been such an inspiration for me, especially about your strength. Thanks for being a great friend for me, i always love the way you tease me and do you know? One of the happiest thing in my life is to see you smile. I know you've trough such a hard life and you got a lot of problems, but thing that make me proud is that you keepin' strong and always optimistic. 

Thanks Mom for all the sincere love you gave to me. I will always love you every second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year and everytime whether i'm still breathing or not. *Big Hug and Kisses*

And also, happy mother's day to all of your Mumsy who read this blog. I wish they have a great day and be better and better Mumsy for you and your family. 

There is only one pretty child in the world, and every mother has it.  

~Chinese Proverb

Nightmare

I couldn't sleep well these few days. I always got a nightmare, a really really bad nightmare. No, it's not a matter of ghosts or those kinda stuff, but those nightmare is all about something that i scared most. It haunts me every night, i always wake up on 1 AM until 3 AM and i can't sleep anymore. Eventhough, yeah well.. that's just a dream, but i'm afraid when someday it becomes a reality. I'm not ready and totally scared of that.

It haunts me

And anyway, i did such a stupid thing today. I'm missing NAFA's scholarship test! Damn! I've been waiting this test for quite a long time and i just missed it today? Gosh, it such a big hit in my head. I know i still have next year for the test, but i'm not sure that i'm gonna make it. I don't have pretty much confidence to do that. This year i'm quite ready for that, but what? i missed it. NICE :(

I'm burying my dream for being NAFA's student now. 

Sweet tooths

It's 2:31 PM here. I just finished a massage and it feels really good. Anyway, NatNat PNut said that she was waiting for my new post. Hahaha. I'm so excited and big headed. But actually i don't really know what to post. Well, now i know! I want to tell you all about my first successful dessert ever! Caramel Custard or people usually called it Flan.

This is not the flan that i've made, i picked this one from google images :p

I'm so excited about it! Finally, i could made it! My first trial of making flan is really messy, the mixture didn't baked and i can't handle the smell of the eggs, which really rancid. This second trial, i've made it without looking any recipe. Yeah. I measure everything by myself. The recipe said that we need eggs, milk, sugar, vanilla essence for the mixture, but i just add eggs and condensed milk to replace the fresh milk. Also, i didn't put any vanilla there and sugar, because i thought that condensed milk has already give a lot of sweetness.  But you know what? It works! I'm so excited about that. It makes me want to cook more, more and more and more and MORE! Especially for making desserts.

After i tasted it, my flan is too sweet, i think next time i make it, i need to add less of condensed milk and maybe replaced it with some cream, because cream also give some thickness to the mixture so when it steams, it could done well. But my little brother, Thomas, he said that he loves it very much and it's really tasty. I'm really glad to hear that. Thanks, Tom!

Here's the flan or caramel custard recipe :

INGREDIENTS:

4 eggs
1/2 cup sugar
2 cups milk (whole milk preferred)
1 teaspoon vanilla extract

FOR CARAMEL:

1 cup sugar
1/2 cup water

METHOD:
In a small sauce pan, prepare the caramel by blending the sugar and water in medium heat. Keep stirring it until it thickens and the syrup turns deep amber in color. Turn off heat.

Arrange 6 ramekins and add the caramel (in equal portion) into the ramekins. (Save some caramel for topping purposes.) Tilt the ramekins and make sure that the caramel is coated evenly at the bottom of the ramekins.

Preheat the oven to 350 degree F. (Oh anyway, you can also use steamer or pressure cooker to make this recipe!)

Clean the sauce pan and heat it up (use low heat). Add in the milk and 1/2 cup of sugar. As soon as the sugar dissolves, turn off the heat. In a big bowl, whisk the eggs until blended, and add in the warm milk slowly. Add the vanilla extract and do a quick whisk. Strain the custard mixture into the 6 ramekins and set aside.

Arrange the 6 ramekins in a baking pan big enough to fit them. Pour hot water in the baking pan about halfway up the ramekins. Transfer the baking pan into the oven and bake for about 50-60 minutes or until a cake tester inserted in the center comes out clean. Remove the ramekins from the baking pan and let cool. Once they turn cool, transfer them to the fridge and chill them for a few hours. When they are ready to serve, slide a knife around the side of each ramekin to loosen the flan. Turn it out on a dessert plate and top it with extra caramel, if you want.


Using steamer (after strain the custard mixture to the ramekins) :
Cover the ramekins with a piece of aluminium foil. Bring down the foil on all sides and tie at the rim of the ramekins with the piece of string.

Steam cook the custard on very low heat for 30-45 minutes. (A fine needle pierced through should come out clean). Remove the foil. Cool, and refrigerate until ready to serve.

COOK’S NOTES: If the caramel turns solid, heat it up in a microwave for 10 seconds to dissolve it.

credits: http://rasamalaysia.com/recipe-flancrme-caramelcaramel-custard/ and http://www.awesomecuisine.com/recipes/2052/1/Caramel-Custard/Page1.html

I do really love desserts and i'm such a sweet tooths. Cakes, cookies, chocolates, pudding, pastry and everything, i just can't stand it. For me, desserts not only taste good in my mouth but also feels great in my tummy. Yumm~ =9

anotherboredom.com

I'm pretty bored at home. I really have nothing to do except helping Mumsy cleaning this house and online over and over and over again. I pick this from Catrul's blog :)

PAST
*Who and when was your first crush?
Kindergarten? Danny? Hahaha :p
*When you were growing up, what kind of person did you see yourself falling in love with when you grew up?
a gentleman! someone who can always makes me laugh in my hardest situation. Caring and understanding :)
*In the past, what were three qualities you looked for in a person?
Handsome, tall, Ari Wibowo type of guy. Huahaha :p
*What is the first thing you notice about a person of the opposite sex?
His smile :)

*In the past, did you fall in love quickly?
Yes, same as catrul's not quickly, but easier
*Have you ever been hurt by an ex?
nah.

PRESENT
*What is the best part of your life right now?
Now? I don't have any remidial test.
*If you could change one thing in your life, what would it be?
My mindset.
*What is the first thing you think about when you wake up?
Gahh.. sweeping again.
*What is the last thing you think about when you go to bed at night?
oh like many things!

FUTURE
*Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Being a success person with happy life with people i love.
*Do you have a plan in life and is it flexible?
I don't have any plan, but i always imagine about it. That's it.
*Do you want children later in life and if so, how many?
Of course! Up to God ;p
*What kind of parent do you believe you will be?
I wish i could be a great Mom who can take care of the family and cook well, of course! and I'm the one who are not gonna let my kids become a pampered one.
*Where do you want to live someday?
Everywhere on earth.

Typography

This is my first typography project! Woot! Not really good and neat, but i think that's not bad at all lah. I've been interested with typography since quite a long time. I made this for Social Class's 2010-2011 universal tee. It's gonna be a part of the tee. I'll upload the tee design soon after the tee has done of course *that's not surprising anymore if i uploaded it now, eventhough thats really simple and not that good* This typography design means that: you can be whatever you want in social class, there are more open jobs for you, because nowadays people are seeking for experienced people. In social, you experienced a lot of things and you're trained to be independent. That's what you need to be a success person :)

2010 Confessions

Pick this from ce Tasia's blog *Thank you* :))

(  ) stayed single for the whole year

(  ) made out in/on a car

(  ) kissed in the snow

(  ) celebrated Halloween

(  ) kissed in the rain

(  ) had your heart broken

(x) broke someone else’s heart

(  ) had a stalker

(  ) went over the minutes on your cell phone

(x) had a good relationship with someone

(  ) someone questioned your sexual orientation

(  ) gotten pregnant

(  ) had an abortion

(x) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget

(x) done something you’ve regretted

(  ) lost faith in love

(  ) kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER

(  ) painted a picture

(x) wrote a poem

(  ) ran a mile

(  ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch

(x) posted a blog

(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand

(x) went to a sleepover

(x) went camping

(x) threw a surprise party

(x) laughed till you cried

(  ) laughed till you peed in your pants

(  ) visited a foreign country

(x) cut in a line of waiting people

(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t

(  ) partied to celebrate the new year

(x) cooked a disastrous meal

(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2010 I…

(x) broke a promise

(x) lied

(  ) went behind your parents back

(  ) cried over a broken heart

(x) disappointed someone close

(x) hid a secret

(x) pretended to be happy

(  ) slept under the stars

(  ) kept your new years resolution

(x) forgot your new years resolution

(x) met someone who changed your life

(  ) met one of your idols

(x) changed your outlook on life

(  ) sat home all day doing nothing

(x) pretended to be sick

(  ) left the country

(  ) almost died

(x) given up something important to you

(x) lost something expensive

(x) learned something new about yourself

(  ) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it 

(x) made a change in your life

(x) found out who your true friends were

(x) met great people

(  ) stayed up til sunrise

(x) Cried over the silliest thing

(  ) was never home on weekends

(  ) got into a car accident

(  ) had friends who were drifting away from you

(  ) had someone close to you die

(  ) had a high cell phone bill

(  ) spent most of your money on food

(  ) had a fist fight

(  ) went to the beach with your best friend

(x) saw a celebrity

(x) gotten sick

(  ) liked more than 5 people at the same time

(x) became closer with a lot of people

FREEDOM is mine

Yeah i'm free! Free for remidial test and it feel so good. I don't have to study anymore, i could spend the rest of my time at home. Yeah.. that's really nice. I'm pretty satisfied with my marks too. As you can see below, i pick that from Sinlui's web. Not that bad, huh?

Though i've been free from the exam, my mind is not really free yet. I'm planning to have a talk with one of them today. I can't internalize it anymore. I have to speak! Yeah, i have to! If i keep waiting like this i would go crazy. I don't care what they might think about me, but yeah.. i have to speak up. What's happened next? I believe that's the best way for us.

I think that's ENOUGH

Enough ! That's really enough! I've become so fragile lately. About everything, i'm sick of it and i can't internalize it for any longer. Indeed, i try to let it pass by, but i just can't. HELLO PEOPLE? I CAN'T!

I'm sick off all this inside problems, i'm sick of my bad anemia, i'm sick of people around me who act so weird lately like i don't know who they are anymore, i'm sick of thinking about this thing, that thing, those things. I feel so desperate now. I hate myself for being so sensitive, for being so hard to share my problems to people i should trust so i can be quite relieve. But hell no, i just can't and i just kept burying, burying, burying everything like i want to explode now!

I cry enough. I think enough. That doesn't solve anything! I almost feel like i rather die than have to live like this. That's totally sucks.

I don't really have someone to talk to because i can't trust them like 100% even my Mom. I don't know why. I don't want to hurt her feelings. All i can do to release this pain is just write everything in my diary. Such a dork. I just don't know when this all will end.

I just miss my past times, i miss having a good time with my family. Having a close relationship with my friends. You know what? I feel terrified all the time with this kinda situation. I'm afraid that i'll lose people who i love, i'll be neglected all the time and i'm afraid that my physical and mental health will also be affected. Geez.