Problems on Mission

Okay, let's begin. I lied everytime people ask me "Are you okay?". Actually No, I am REALLY NOT OKAY. Is that clear? I have a lot of problems lately and i just can't face it. I can't hold it. It ruined my mind like everytime, but i wonder why all of this 'big hit' has to come in Exams period? I don't understand. It affects my mood and mind so badly, and now i'm so stressed, depressed, lonely and my life becoming a total mess.

I try to be positive and thinking about the goods behind it. It isn't as easy as i thought before. I need somebody to listen to me. I really need it :(

I can't stand if i always act like i'm a happy person, whereas deep inside i can't stop crying. Why me?

I felt like..

I also think that lately peoples seem to act weird. I don't really understand why, many peoples around me change a lot. Their personality, their habits even their thought. Seems like they live in their artificiality. It's like they force themselves to be someone else and they become like a stranger to me. Peoples are really hard to guess *sigh*.

Terms of the things i'm afraid of:

# Peoples talk rudely behind my back

# Nobody seems to care and understand about my situation now

# Peoples change

# I'm living in my fears and loneliness

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Song of the moment : Things are gonna get better - David Archuleta

"Cause I, know, it’s hard to have the strength and,

Sometimes, all you feel is pain, but,

Things keep floating by on that river in the night"