Jeno

It was a day before my birthday, as I remember. Another typical of January, that evening it rained really hard. Grunting to myself since I have to wait for several hours to finally get back home, I was looking at the hallway of parking lot when our eyes met. It was a deep brown eyes which shows a slight wrinkles when he smiles. I can feel myself not blinking for few seconds. He smiles at me and get inside his car. That was the first day I saw him, that was the first day I thought I fall for Jeno.

Jeno is a great guy. He was like a popping candy which surprise you everytime. He is not just smart, but every single thing he do seems so flawless. I happened to finally know each other trough Sophie. He was a new team member in her department, which makes me so jealous yet also happy because I can trust Sophie to dig as much information about him as I wanted.

I could tell you Jeno likes politics as much as I love soda. He is 5 years older than me, but he likes Captain America more than anyone else. He speaks Chinese really well, since he used to study there for a year. He plays piano really well and surprisingly he is a great cook. He does not talk much, but he smiles a lot. Jeno has three Siamese cat; Brown, Green, and Orange which is also his favorite color. I think I like him even more, because he looks so awkward when he talks to me and I think that's kinda cute.

That Sunday afternoon, I was typing my Weekly Journal when he walks to my desk and cleared his throat. He throw that wrinkly-eyes-smile at me and I can't help myself but screaming loudly inside. "Umm.. Hi!", he said.

"Oh.. um.. Hi Jeno! What brings you here?"

"Well.. nothing. Just passing by and wanting to say hello?"

"Umm, okay! Hello?"

He giggles AND I SWEAR I FEEL LIKE I AM IN HEAVEN NOW!

"Yes, anyway you have plan on the next weekend?"

IS HE GOING TO ASK ME FOR A DATE?

"Well, if you going to treat me some good stuff then I have to consider that I don't have any plans then..", I swear I am going to cry right now. I swear my voice is shaky now. I swear I want to hide my face right now.

"No problem then, I pick you up at 7 next Friday?"

"Cool!"

I AM GOING TO A DATE WITH JENO. YES. I AM.

That next Friday,

It took me more than 3 hours to get ready. I am not usually do make ups when I am going out, but definitely not today. I wear my heels instead of my worn out flats, and yes.. looking at myself in front of the mirror with this little black dress and ponytails, I guess it's enough to show Jeno how excited I am to show the best of me. He come right on time at 7, and what I saw that night probably one of God's most beautiful creature. Jeno didn't brought any flowers or chocolates but just by seeing him with that navy shirts and throwing that wrinkly smiles on me once again, is more than enough. "Shall we?", he said. My lips can't stop smiling. I slightly nod. Tonight will be great!

Jeno has a great taste of music. He plays Jazz troughout our way to the restaurant. My heart thumping like crazy. "So.. why you.. suddenly take me for dinner?". OH MY GOD, WHAT DID I JUST SAY?!

Jeno looks a bit surprised.

"Ah, just.. I have something to talk to you. But let's talk about it later while we eat. I'm quite hungry right now, I don't think I can talk much."

He slightly laugh, I am blushing. "Well okay, me too. Remember your promise, you treat me tonight, ya?!"

We arrived at Farfalle, let's say it was one of the best spot for couples in my area. The setting was perfect, so do the ambiance, the food, and for tonight, the partner is also perfect.

"So.. what was you trying to say?". I bravely open the conversation.

"Umm, actually I want to talk about Kris. He is your subordinate isn't he?"

"Kris? Yes? Whats with Kris?"

"Are you close?"

"What do you mean by close? He is my subordinate so.. well.. yeah? We are close."

There was like a gear inside my head which keeps rolling. What's with Kris? Is he jealous because he thinks I am with Kris? Come on, Jeno. You looks so adorable and awkward right now.

"No, I mean.. do you have any relationship thing with-"

"No, I am not. He's just my subordinate. That's it."

Jeno breaths deeply and slightly smile. "Thank God!"

My pupils are shaking, my heart is trembling wanting to know what he's going to say next.

"I thought he is your boyfriend."

"No, once again he is just-"

"Because I thought I like him, he looks cute and I wish you could introduce me to him if it is possible?"

Wait, wait, wait. 

What?

Like? Cute? Introduce?

"Um.. wha- what do you mean?"

"Well, I am glad I know you because I thought I will never get to know Kris forever. Ever since I joined the team I already had a crush on him but I thought you both have a special relationship. That is why I brought you here to clarify everything and if possible to let me know him more?"

No, Jeno. 

You don't.

***

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Hello from Middle of June!

It's really been awhile! Hampir setengah tahun lebih nggak blogging. Maklum, orang sibuk dan nggak pinter bagi waktu. Aku tiba-tiba kangen ngeblog lagi setelah baca post-post sebelumnya. Rasanya, masih perlu banyak hal yang ditulis di sini. Terlalu banyak.

Anyway, ini sekedar random post aja sih, soalnya yah.. masa-masa berat akhirnya sedikit berkurang. Bukan berakhir loh ya, tapi cuma berkurang. Ujian akhirnya selesai, semester 4 juga resmi selesai, tapi masih banyak kegiatan yang bikin sibuk, bikin stress, bikin bingung sana sini. Aku punya sedikit waktu untuk ngeblog. Sekarang menunjukkan pukul 1:43 waktu laptop ketika aku menulis kata-kata ini. Aku belum bisa tidur.

I can't imagine how life turn so fast. Abis gini guweh udah masuk semester 5 bro, gila. Tinggal 2 semester lagi dan aku siap magang, ngurusin skripsi, sidang dan lulus.Waktu-waktu yang seperti ini yang namanya lama tapi terasa cepet. Tinggal 2 semester lagi, kalo Tuhan memang belum menghendaki, saya siap menyandang gelar mahasiswi "STMJ" alias mahasiswi Semester Tujuh Masih Jomblo. Hahaha. Ngenes indeed!

Dan, bicarain masalah jomblo. Banyak kawan-kawan dan termasuk saya sendiri mungkin, sedang dilanda krisis dan galau akibat kejombloan akut. Kenapa? karena di kampus semacam sedang bersemi musim pacaran dan PDKT. Banyak banget temen-temen yang tiba-tiba jadian. Saling BBMan tiba-tiba jadian, Saling komen-komenan di insta tiba-tiba jadian, gandeng-gandengan tiba-tiba jadian, liat-liatan tiba-tiba jadian, nyontek-nyontekan tiba-tiba ketauan terus nilainya dikasi 0 sama dosen. Hahaha. Maaf jayus. 

Yah intinya banyak banget dan kita para jomblo semacam terasingkan. Sesama temen kita yang dulu jomblo yang dulunya selalu ngajakin pergi tiap malem minggu sekarang udah punya acara sendiri sama gebetannya. Yang dulunya kemana-mana selalu punya waktu buat nemenin kita, sekarang nemenin gebetannya. Lah yang jomblo? menemani dan mengjibur diri sendiri. Hahaha.

Sebenarnya jomblo bukan masalah besar. Kalo dipikir-pikir di usia kepala 2 ini memang sudah mulai penting cari pacar, but that's not the priority. Masih banyak hal lain yang harus dipikirkan terutama untuk kuliah sendiri. Yah kalo diibaratkan, kalo belum siap membina rumah tangga jangan menikah. Kalo belum siap pacaran, jangan ikut-ikutan hanya demi supaya nggak keliatan sendiri. 

Overall setelah dipikir juga, jadi jomblo nggak segitu buruknya. Cuma memang mungkin kalo ada pasangan pendamping kita jadi lebih semangat buat ngapa-ngapain. Tapi untuk aku sekarang nggak segitunya sih. Let it flow saja seperti kata kang Afgan "Jodoh pasti bertemu". Pasti nanti suatu saat ada orang yang melihat sisi yang berbeda dari kita. Orang yang punya persepsi dan pandangan yang beda terhadap kita.  Jadi, para jomblowan dan jomblowati di Indonesia, berhenti galau plis! Kita pasti kuat menghadapi semua ini :')

SALAM JOMBLO!

August 2nd.

Feels so random ya. Saya senang sekali waktu tau kalo ternyata blog saya yang saya pikir udah karatan dan jamuran ini masih ada yang "nyambangin" satu dua orang. Thanks to Catrul! dan siapapun kamu di sana yang sering mampir ke sini. Yah, aku tau mungkin post-post ku kurang menarik akhir-akhir ini. I have no intentions to write something, anything.

It's August already! Terlalu cepat buat mengakhiri tahun 2013. Sekitar 4 bulan lagi tahun ini sudah berakhir dan ini semua terlalu cepet. Banget. Mungkin aku udah terlalu banyak menyia-nyiakan waktu. Banyak rencana yang disusun tetapi cuma sedikit yang direalisasikan. Diet? jelas gagal. Cari uang sendiri? super gagal. Naikin IP dan lebih rajin? gagal juga. Nyanyi bareng Key? HENTIKAN SAYA MAU NANGIS!!

Tapi dibalik semua kegagalan ada sebuah keberhasilan. Keberhasilan yang mungkin buat sebagian orang hanya merupakan hal idiot yang dilakukan seseorang yang bahkan tidak bisa membedakan realita dan khayalan. Ehem.. tarik nafas dulu.. OKE..

SAYA NONTON KONSER INFINITE 31 AGUSTUS NANTI DI MEIS, JAKARTA LIAT L SECARA NYATA!!!

Halooooo?? Semua orang harus tau! Shit girls say: "FYI yah, guweh bisa nonton ini gak gampang tao ga? Ngomong sama bokap nyokap tuh gila bangedh." OH MAMA AKU TAK PERCAYA INI SEMUA TERJADI PADAKU. Akhirnya setelah galau berkepanjangan, aku memutuskan untuk memilih. Aku memilih untuk memberanikan diri bicara, aku memilih mewujudkan mimpiku meski cuma bisa liat dari jauh, aku memilih nonton meskipun harus menguras sedikit tabunganku buat nanti magang di Korea. Mungkin aku nggak berpikir panjang tapi apapun pilihanku nggak akan bikin aku nyesel. PASTI!

Semakin lama aku semakin sadar kalo hidup ini benar-benar pilihan. Konsep opportunity cost dalam ekonomi mikro maupun makro itu memang riil adanya. Untuk membuat suatu pilihan besar, ada pilihan besar lain yang harus dikorbankan. Kita memang tidak selalu bisa mendapatkan semua yang diinginkan, tapi setidaknya kita bisa mencari cara dan percaya untuk bisa mewujudkannya.

D-29 and counting.

When hope is here, faith remains.

Mau nggak mau, harus tetap memilih

Berdasarkan post terakhirku,

aku sudah memutuskan.

I AM NOT GOING.

Setelah pemikiran panjang dan berbagai pertimbangan, aku tidak akan berangkat pertukaran pelajar ke Korea *Boooooo~* Kenapa? karena ini mungkin memang belum saatnya. Tapi, 2 tahun lagi PASTI! PUASTI! Aku bakal pamer-pamer foto begitu kakiku pertama kali menginjak bandara Incheon di musim semi Seoul 2015. Berharap aja dunia belum kiamat waktu itu, dan Korut berbaik hati nggak jadi berusaha ngehancurin Korsel..

Tapi sedih? pasti sedih. 

Iri tau ngeliat kakak-kakak kelas yang udah siap magang ke Korea, Juli nanti berangkat! 

Barusan juga liat video dari HighStreet Fosho waktu ke Korea gara-gara menang BigBang contest design Samsung galaxy note 2. 

Well, i'm not a big fan of BigBang, tapi tetep aja iri. Perasaan aku juga sering ngikutin semacam lomba yang sama dengan sistem "Like" entah dimanapun, mempertaruhkan malu dan nggak peduli dianggap freak. Tetep aja, i have no luck at all.

Sebagai pelampiasan, saya memutuskan untuk memborong SHINee and Infinite stuffs. Akhirnya setelah pemikiran yang panjang, aku tinggal menunggu kehadiran pacar-pacarku..

L's Bravo Viewtiful..

Infinite New Challenge..

SHINee Why So Serious: The misconception of me..

Yang tentunya menghabiskan cukup banyak uang, 

dan sebenarnya juga agak menyesal kenapa nggak dipikir lagi

-______-

Dan yang paling buruk.

Disaat aku memutuskan nggak akan beli apa-apa lagi setelah semua barang ini, munculah secercah sinar di timeline twitter. Penasaran apa, akhirnya aku baca..

"SHINee to release photo travel essay 'Surprise Vacation' on May 25th"

Rasanya seperti dimutilasi *eh* 

SEDIH SEKALI! AKU MAU SEKALI! TABUNGANKU TERTAWA KERAS SEKALI!!!

OH TUHAN TOLONGLAH!

Aku cuma ingin bertemu dengan mereka. SHINee, Infinite, Myungsoo, Kibum. Mungkin aku sudah nggak bisa lebih lama lagi bersabar dan menunggu. Tapi aku juga nggak akan pernah tau apa takdirku. Apa mungkin beberapa bulan lagi akan ada keajaiban seperti yang aku selalu harapkan setiap hari, setiap detik, atau malah mungkin 10 tahun lagi aku bakal jadi seorang ibu-ibu yang masih tergila-gila dengan Kpop walaupun sudah bersuami dan ber-anak. Anak-anakku nanti juga ikut freak gara-gara niru kebiasaan mamanya yang suka teriak-teriak sendiri waktu nonton om-om Korea di TV. Suamiku juga cuma bisa geleng-geleng kepala dengan sedikit penyesalan. *ketok meja*

Begitulah..

Semoga sekarang aku cuma memupuk kesialanku menjadi suatu keberuntungan nantinya ya :')

BENA!

Indonesia memang sangat reachable buat kenalan-kenalan sama pesohor di dunia entertainment maupun tulis-menulis. Maaf kalo lagi-lagi saya kampungan, tapi sekali lagi saya berhasil mengudara! Kali ini tak lain tak bukan bersama bang @benakribo. Cihuy!!

Ceritanya nih abis baca bukunya, aku ngepost deh di Instagram foto bareng Benabook. Bukunya emang attractive banget. Mana ada bonus kacamata *eh, pembatas buku* pixel lagi. Eh.. barusan aja aku pulang dari kampus terus buka bluestack, bang Bena nya nge like foto saya. Bahagia..

Cekidot cekidot. Yuhuuuu!!

Aku emang pake bluestack buat make aplikasi-aplikasi android di laptop. Maklum, masih sedikit kurang gaul belum punya android atau gadget bermarga i gitu-gitu lah ( iNgusan, iLeran, dsb)

Nanti-nanti aja ya :D

Sekalian ngereview buku ini. Awalnya aku beli otomatis gara-gara tertarik sama covernya. Don't judge book by its cover nggak berlaku kalo kamu emang berencana cari buku yang menarik. Begitu tertuju dengan nama pengarangnya kayaknya nggak terlalu asing. Benakribo..

OH IYA! SI NYONNYONNYON! 

Aku suka banget main game di sana 

tapi gara-gara terlalu susah aku tinggal..

Setelah baca sinopsisnya akhirnya dengan uang seadanya di dompet aku memutuskan untuk beli.

Sesampainya di rumah,

Kubuka perlahan sampulnya, dan.. alangkah indahnya melihat serangkaian tulisan berpadu indah dengan ilustrasi-ilustrasi menarik. Overall, buku ini menceritakan kisah-kisah bang Bena sendiri mulai dari SD sampe sekarang. Bahasanya ringan dan cerita-ceritanya juga kocak. 

Yang bikin buku ini beda, pembaca nggak sekedar membaca tapi juga diajak menulis dan berpikir karena banyak selipan games dan kuis yang seru banget. Bab terakhir dari Benabook ini menurut aku yang paling menarik, karena berhubungan dengan mimpi. Suka banget sama kata-kata dan motivasi-motivasinya.

Semoga aja ya, suatu saat saya benar-benar bisa menggapai mimpi setinggi bintang di langit :)

Akhir kata, 

Teruslah berkarya bang! 

Cerita Kpop Guweh dan Paskah.

Gila mamen! Guweh sedang asik-asiknya menahan derita sakit perut bulanan dan hampir muntah-muntah belajar statistik, tiba- tiba dapet pencerahan macam ini..

OH MAMAH MOHON RESTU UNTUK MENIKAH DENGAN MEREKA!
Jadi, Infinite mendapat kemenangan pertamanya di Inkigayo! 오빠들, 축하해요!! Dan yang paling amazing, yang bikin aku nggak sanggup nahan diri buat *sekali lagi* nggak teriak-teriak kayak orang gila di depan laptop adalah.. kehadiran ketiga pacar guweh. Kim Kibum. Kim Myungsoo. Lee Hyunwoo. Seriusan.
Dan ini adalah wajah saya ketika melihat mereka di layar laptop..

Kurang lebih 11-12 sama orang ini..

"Kenapa dunia ini benar-benar tidak adil Mamah? KENAPAAAH?"

Mungkin kalo aku bisa ada di sana, ngeliatin si Hyunwoo nge MC, L sama Key tampil,  Sakit perut dan penderitaan akan lelah yang tak berkesudahan ini tidak berarti apa-apa. Apalagi dua bias paling tampan se-Kpop raya guweh berdiri berdampingan! Skip aja videonya ke 5:42 Bawa. Aku. Ke. Seoul. Sekarang. Titik maritik.
Oh  SELAMAT PASKAH untuk semua makhluk yang telah diselamatkanNya di bumi, untuk kamu kamu dan kamu.  YA KAMU! Terima kasih banyak atas penebusanMu ya Tuhan, dan dengan kebangkitanMu, aku percaya bahwa dunia ini senantiasa berada di bawah perlindunganMu. Tak pernah sekali pun Engkau meninggalkan kami. Terima kasih untuk cinta kasihMu yang tiada berkesudahan. I'm really grateful.
Dan mungkin gara-gara berkah Paskah, atau gara-gara doa saya sebelum tidur buat Tuhan, tadi malem saya mimpi indaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah banget.. Pada suatu hari, Seorang gadis yang sedikit tampan bernama Pauline bertemu idolanya yang berasal dari Korea Selatan. Sebut saja lelaki berambut pirang itu Key. Aku juga heran, kenapa mimpi aku akhir-akhir ini sangat mendetail sampai detail terkecilpun aku ingat. Key pake kaos warna hitam dan varsity navy + Snapback motif leopard. Auuuu...
Singkat cerita, kita saling berjumpa di coffee shop macam yang ada di drama-drama Korea gitu, ada Jonghyun juga ding di situ! Ceritanya aku lagi diajarin bahasa Korea. Terus juga sempet nanya-nanya sama mereka kalo mereka deket nggak sama group lainnya, Infinite misalnya. Dan mereka bilang deket sama beberapa member aja. Waktu itu aku bilang ke mereka "Ini sungguh kayak mimpi (ya emang cuma mimpi -___-) akhirnya aku bisa ketemu kalian!" Abis gitu si Key bilang "Tenang aja, kita kan masih bisa contact-contactan. Kamu ngelike semua fotoku di Instagram kan?"
JEDUARRRR!! DIA TAU! Abis itu yang aku inget cuma adikku masuk kamar dan teriak "WOI BANGUN WOI!" terus aku jadi kebangun. Kata-kata terakhir yang aku bilang "OPPA KAJIMA!!" Sambil terseok-seok di lantai cafe ngeliat Key sama Jonghyun pergi and not looking back. Mimpi selesai.
Ah, meskipun gitu saya tetap bahagia bisa mimpi indah setelah sekian lama tidak bisa bermimpi karena terlalu kecapekan dan tidur terlalu sebentar (Buat aku tidur 4-5 jam itu SANGAT sebentar, dan kalo tidur sangat sebentar ujung-ujungnya sepanjang hari saya pasti bete)
Yah.. Begitulah kira-kira.. Kapan ya saya bisa bener-bener ketemu mereka di Korea? Siapapun, ada yang tahu caranya dan mau bantu saya? *mewek*

Infinitely K-Pop

Setelah bersibuk-sibuk ria dengan segala kegiatan saya akhir-akhir ini di kampus, otak yang semakin tak terkontrol arahnya mau mikir ke mana, pelajaran kuliah yang semakin lama semakin membuat hidup saya menyedihkan, saya masih tidak bisa lepas dari satu hal..

KPOP.

Setelah puas menangis dan bertahan dengan mata panda selama kurang lebih 3 hari, efek galau masih belum dapat di hapuskan. Kenyataan bahwa aku nggak bisa menggunakan kesempatan nonton Music Bank dengan baik memang sungguh pahit. PAHIT.. BANGET.

Akhir-akhir ini juga saya jadi semakin tergila-gila sama Infinite, apalagi Myungsoo. Andai habis Music Bank bisa kubawa pulang dan kuculik dia di rumah. And guess what, March is awesomely daebak! SHINee comeback, Infinite comeback, David Archuleta new album. Gila saya benar-benar ingin beli semuanya, tapi DUIT GUWEH..

Sedih ya..

TRAUMA. Jaman sekarang ya, kalo orang Surabaya bilang jek usum ta (apa masih jamannya) nipu lewat online shop? Guweh stress mamen, duit 160 ribu melayang ditelan penipu. Emang sih, mau diapain lagi, cuma aku sangat-sangat-super-duper-hyper puingin album SHINee Dream Girl. At least, kalo mau nipu kirimin yang bajakan kek apa kek, ini main tinggal lari mana masih bisa caci maki customer. Eh salah, KORBAN BUKAN CUSTOMER. Bete saya.

Buat semua, KPopers jangan tergiur album harga murah ya. Lain kali mending beli yang agak mahal tapi sellernya bener-bener trusted. Saya beneran belajar banyak dari kejadian ini. Uang dan dream girl semua melayang :')

Hati-hati sama seller album Kpop dengan nama "Music Connection" atau "Musiq Conneqtion" pemiliknya namanya Rendy, pas baca-baca di kaskus sih katanya anak UPH 2009. GAK PEDULI! Mau UPH, UPI, UPJ.. KIRIMIN ALBUM PESENAN AKU! :'( 

Dia pake nama samaran kalo di sms, Angel. Heran, masih berani jadi bencong juga ini orang. Udah banyak yang ketipu bahkan ada yang sampe jutaan, jadi hati-hati ya. FBnya udah di hapus, berdoa sajalah semoga ia mendapat ganjaran yang sepantasnya. Sedih, tiap kali mau beli album original SHINee selalu aja ketipu :'(

Tapi, kalo emang ditakdirkan buat punya, suatu saat pasti bisa dapet penggantinya kan? :')

Vanished.

Terribly sad. There's no other thing that crossed my mind right now, except the fact that i'm so broken hearted.

I've tried every chances that i can take to win Music Bank Jakarta ticket. Still, i don't get it. I guess i already give up. I laughed at myself, looking at how silly i am doing all this stuffs. I know this is an effort, yet it turns to something effortless.

I can't tell the universe how much i want it. I didn't ask people to look pity on me. I simply want it. NOW.

Never expect something which not affordable. That seriously break you apart.

Yet, i still have faith. He has a bigger and better plan for me. Now it's just not my time. Maybe He laughed at me now, He still didn't sure about my effort and how much i want it. He wanted to see more of me. He wanted me to do something even more. Soon enough, i will cry.. not because i'm desperate like this, but because i'm happy that i finally meet them. Face to face. Hand in hand.

But now.. It's just good bye.

Congratulation, Jes!

So, i've been watching Asia's Next Top Model lately. Today is the last episode of this season and we got our first ever winner,  Jessica Amornkuldilok CONGRATULATION!!
After the last episode aired, we have a live chat with the winner on ustream. Guess what happen on 01:57.. SKIP SKIP SKIP

Video streaming by Ustream

Oh la la la~ She called my name :')

You know, I always get over excited when a celebrity notice me.

Am i being too cheesy?

Ah~ let's see if one day i could make everything seems closer to what i've been dreaming lately..

If you love it, You can do it ♥ 

- Jessica Amornkuldilok

Say Goodbye, S.

This is the first time i show you my all time favorite shoes. Simple broken-white converse sneakers, S. Though it is really dirty and old , but it has been together with me since my 1st grade of High School. But this is time to say goodbye...

Okay, it's gonna be weird.
But, I cannot bear it because I love it (?)

Goodbye my lover, Goodbye my friend,
You have been the one, you have been the one for me..

I will let you go, if it's the right time for you to go..

I'll go find a baby-you, a new you soon. Thanks for protecting my feet for almost 3 years.

I LOVE YOU, S :')

Hi?

Back to my mood of blogging. I have a lot to type recently. Holiday makes a lot of thoughts running trough my head, like it is going to explode.

I deleted my chatbox since there's a lot of spam. Annoying spam. If you are blogwalking to my blog, leave comment then. I'll visit you back. Let me know :)

Aaaaaand.. I red my stat yesterday, and i found it interesting. My blog was visited by South Koreans. I'm so happy though i didn't know whether he/she is native or just some foreigners there. But, 

내 블로그를 방문해 주셔서 감사! 반가워요! :D

As you know i'm learning Korean now. Still learning.. Actually quite happy with my progress. I listen to K-Pop song a lot, watching variety and drama a lot. I'm happy because little by little i understand what they're saying. Though i can't speak properly and still use help from Google Translate sometimes. I'll learn more until i can understand and speak Korean fluently! :D

Still, life is getting tough lately!

2013, would it be nice?

40 Random Quiz

Got this from Candy's..

1. Three things I want to say to three different people.

Mom, happy mother's day. I know we've been trough a lot of rough and good times and it's never easy for me to say i love you, but i really do.

David Archuleta, how is it going there? 2012 almost end. Another year to wait for your comeback. Are you doing well? Take care of yourself and stay awesome instead! I wish one day i could really meet you in person, this has been my wish ever since 2008, and i'm looking forward to make it happen really soon! :)

SHINee 오빠들, 나는 할 말이 혼란 스러워요. 오빠들 때문에, 난 지금 한국어 공부해요. SHINee를 정말 보고싶었어요. 난 그냥 새롭게 팬이고, 난 알아. 하지만 언젠가 제가 너희 모두 충족 할 것으로 기대 막을 수 없어. 널 지원하기 위해 여기 있다는 걸 주시기 바랍니다. 사람들 보여 줄게, 사과도 바나나 나무에 성장합니다. 우리가 서로 만날거야, 그래요? 많이 많이 사랑해요 오빠!! 샤이니 짱!!! 

2. One of my insecurities. My dreams.

3. What turns me on. Singing.

4. One of my bad habits. Moody. 

5. Who I wish I could be. Better me.

6. Where I want to be right now. Seoul!

7. The last thing I ate. Papaya.

8. Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately. Taylor Lautner.

9. What song I’m currently listening to. The World With You - SHINee

10. The last time I cried and why. Yesterday, i was mad because of many things.

11. Something I’m excited about. Christmas!

12. 5 things I like about myself and 5 things I dislike about myself.

Like: Talented, creative, funny, willing to achieve something i really want, thinking of something new

Dislike: Moody, perfectionist, emotional, niggard, lazy

13. Three things I want right now. Music bank ticket, lots of new clothes (esp. that Luhan jacket, i've already ordered though, hehe), pass all my courses.

14. Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you, where’s it from?  yes, my Mom bought it.

15. How long was your last phone conversation? few minutes ago, about less than a minute?

16. What are you looking forward to? ASP this year, reaching Korea in 2013.

17. Did you get anything off your chest today? ha?

18. How many rings do you usually wear? one.

19. Would you rather go to Canada or California on vacation?  Neither. S.E.O.U.L !!

20. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants? shorts.

21. Do you call it fall or autumn?  fall.

22. Are you an emotional person?  yes and yes.

23. It’s 2 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it most likely from? Operator -___-

24. Do you like long car rides?  okay.

25. Do you have an adult you can talk to about anything? no one no one no oneeeee *singing alicia key's*

26. Last time you saw your dad? He was just come into my room.

27. Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle? no.

28. Do you do your own laundry? sometimes for some stuffs.

29. Would you like the ability to read minds?  it'll be awesome!

30. Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? who never see me cry? 

31. You’re thinking about a certain person right now, aren’t you? yes.

32. What will you be doing in five years? At least i go to Korea and watch either SHINee's or David Archuleta's concert. Graduated with satisfying achievement.

34. Last 2 people to text you? Smartfren and Karenila. 

35. Do you know what you want to be when you grow up? Yes of course !

36. Do you like to cuddle? yes?

37. When angry, do you get loud or quiet? quiet.

38. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? ha? i don't know and don't think so.

39. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex? yea.

40. How’s your hair right now?

Like this?

Balada Seorang Pria.

Kembali dengan pos random. Sebagai seorang cewek normal, sepanjang hampir 19 tahun saya hidup pasti pernah paling nggak 1-2 kali berimjinasi, gimana seandainya kalo dulu aku terlahir sebagai cowok? Mungkin enak. Nggak usah repot menanggung sakit pada "waktunya", nggak usah susah-susah melahirkan, nggak usah disuruh ngerjain pekerjaan-pekerjaan rumah.

TAPI ITU SEMUA SALAH SAUDARA-SAUDARA!!

Saya mulai berpikir bahwa menjadi cewek lebih memiliki berbagai macam keuntungan. Kenapa? Masalah-masalah tersebut akan diuraikan sebagai berikut:

Kondisi 1: Gossip

Cewek nge-gossip itu biasa, apalagi bahkan kadang sampe bisik-bisik yang bikin risih. Tapi cowok? Bayangin  kalian lagi jalan lewat di salah satu food court di sebuah mall, tiba-tiba ada cowok-cowok semacam berkumpul arisan lagi nge-gossip pasti keren benjets kan cyinnn!

Kondisi 2: Lelaki tetaplah lelaki

Posisikan dirimu sebagai cewek, ketika kamu lagi nonton Twilight lalu ngeliat Taylor lautner super hot di sana dan kalian teriak-teriak mungkin memang bakal sedikit alay tapi itu biasa. Waktu nonton Transformers, ketika Megan Fox muncul dengan pakaian minim pun cewek sering bilang "Wuih, gila seksi abis, cantik lagi!" hal seperti itu juga biasa. Tapi, apa yang terjadi ketika seorang cowok nonton Twilight dan melihat adegan Edward berkilau-kilau kena pancaran sinar matahari lalu secara reflek mereka bilang "Gila, ganteng seksi abis!"? Hello?! That's why jadi cowok nggak sepenuhnya bebas berimajinasi.

Kondisi 3: Gandengan

Kebanyakan cewek memang punya sifat bawaan manja, ada beberapa yang sepanjang hidupnya gara-gara sejak kecil kebiasaan digandeng, sampe besar pun suka nge-gandeng orang. Belanja gandengan, ke toilet gandengan, makan gandengan, korek upil pun mungkin kadang juga gandengan. Tapi sudah merupakan pemandangan lazim lihat cewek sesama cewek gandengan. Sebaliknya, bayangkan hal itu terjadi pada cowok. Efek bulu kuduk berdirinya lebih parah daripada uji nyali. Serem.

Kondisi 4: Fashion

Cewek itu lebih fashionable! Berbagai macam model baju mulai "You can see" sampe "Everybody can see" ada semua. Tren yang sedang in dan tetap in sampai sekarang adalah hot pants. Okay, mungkin nggak semua cewek percaya diri pake hot pants, apalagi yang merasa pahanya besar lah ini lah itu lah, tapi pemandangan cewek pake hot pants itu sudah biasa, bahkan kadang yang berbahagia memiliki anugerah paha langsingpun pasti bikin banyak cewek lain ngiri. Sebaliknya, ketika cowok memakai hot pants dan jalan gandengan seperti kondisi 3 di atas, *sigh* akan jadi seperti itulah...

Kondisi 5: Menangis

Cowok kebanyakan suka kelihatan lebih tegar dibanding cewek. Itu kenapa cowok memiliki image seakan "Aku harus kuat! aku nggak boleh nangis" padahal mungkin dalam sebagian diri mereka menangis ketika melihat sinetron semacam "Safa dan Marwah" ketika Safa harus ditampar, mungkin hati mereka menjerit sambil menahan tangis "KENAPAAA?? KENAPA HARUS MAIN TANGAN? KENAPA HARUS MENYAKITI ORANG LAIN?". Nggak sedikit cowok berbadan rambo, berhati hello kitty.

Pos ini terinspirasi oleh salah seorang teman lelaki yang secara tidak sadar saya tanyai "Gimana KimKim dari deket? Ganteng nggak?" dan ia menjawab "Aku lo cowok, dia juga cowok, kenapa harus tanya aku? Masak aku mau bilang dia ganteng?" Dan dalam hati saya berpikir.. "Oh.. ternyata begini jalan pikiran cowok. Hohohoho"

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Disclaimer: Just for FUN. Semua ini hanya untuk guyonan semata. Bagi yang merasa tersakiti, karena ini pos sebelum natal jadi harap dimaklumi. Mohon maaf sebesar-besarnya, semoga damai natal beserta kita :)

Once upon a december

Kim Jeffrey Kurniawan is super HOT. HOT HOT HOT. Not because Surabaya is getting hotter and hotter everyday, but he's SUPER HOT.

Ho-ho-ho JACKPOT!! XD

Hey i just met you and this is crazy, but here's my number so call me maybe..

He came to my campus today as a guest star in Ethics Tutorial Class last meeting. I never expect that he would be soooooo mesmerizing. HEY! I AM JUST A NORMAL GIRL. And he is really nice and sweet-scented with the freckles on his face which is super cute! I thank to him after taking a photo and only with a "Yes" word him already made my day. 

Girls..

I expect everyone whose name contains word "Kim" always good looking. Just take a look, Kim Kurniawan, Kim Kibum, Kim Jonghyun, Kimbum.. Kimkim?

Thanks to Nila who helped me to took a picture with him. This is why i love December! ♥

Coret Kata Malu.

Setelah bergalau ria dengan post-post sebelumnya, kali ini saya hadir dengan post yang (AMIN) lebih menghibur. Tentunya dibarengi dengan info dan tips yang dapat berguna buat eloh-eloh semua. Dan karena bahasa Indonesia sekarang udah semakin gahoels, ada baiknya kali ini saya ngepost dengan bahasa Indonesia.

Jadi, kita sering banget melakukan hal-hal konyol nggak terduga dalam hidup kita. Kadang sengaja, kadang nggak sengaja. Apapun itu, mulai dari sekarang, coret kata malu dalam kamus kalian, karena kita nggak sepatutnya malu atas hal-hal konyol yang kita lakukan asalkan diatasi dengan cara yang benar. Dibawah ini adalah beberapa situasi yang sering kita lakukan dan cara mengatasinya:

Situasi 1: Jatuh di tangga
Do: Cepat-cepat berdiri dengan muka datar tanpa noleh kiri kanan. Stay cool and move on! Kayak iklan-iklan rokok di TV, yang penting enjoy aja. Anggap nggak ada yang lihat kejadian barusan.
Don't: Teriak dan meringis, bahkan menangis sambil guling-guling di tanah. Efek malunya akan jadi 10 kali lipat.

Situasi 2: Suara kentut terdengar keras
Do: Langsung bilang "Eh, aku abis kentut loh". Dalam situasi seperti ini, orang-orang akan lebih maklum karena menganggap kamu bercanda. Sekalipun emang kenyataan, mereka nggak bakal ambil pusing.
Don't: Nuduh-nuduh orang lain yang kentut. Ada kepercayaan yang memang sedikit akurat, siapa yang nuduh dia yang kentut. It is..

Situasi 3: Ketangkep basah melirik gebetan
Do: Pandangi dia lebih lama, setelah berhitung sampai 3 buang pandangan misterius. Jangan gugup dan jangan gegabah! Kalo perlu kedip-kedip mata juga bisa dijadikan opsi, pura-puralah kelilhpan. Cara terakhir (hanya bisa dilakukan dalam radius kurang dari 1 meter) berkatalah "Tatap mata saya" sambil bergaya ala Deddy Corbuzier. Dia akan mengira jalo kamu sedang belajar mind reading..
Don't: Langsung buang muka. Keliatan banget kalo lagi merhatiin orang, apalagi kalo sampe langsung lari cari tempat sembunyi.

Situasi 4: Reseleting lupa ditutup
Do: Pura-pura jadi pasukan pramuka yang lagi cek kerapian. Tegakkan badan dan mulai berhitung, pada hitungan ke 4 (bagian reseleting) cepat kancingkan reseleting jangan lupa akhiri dengan pose hormat.
Don't: Membiarkannya terbuka seolah-olah tidak ada yang melihat. Yah, kalo nggak percaya bisa dicoba sendiri apa efeknya.

Situasi 5: "Eh, ada upil tuh di hidungmu"
Do: Cepat ambil upilnya dan segera membuangnya, pura-pura menakuti orang yang memberitahu kalo di hidungmu ada upil dengan menyodor-nyodorkan upilmu. Mungkin memang jorok, tapi setidaknya kamu tidak usah salah tingkah.
Don't: Makan upil.

Saya menulis post ini beberapa didasarkan pengalaman pribadi dan sangat berharap apabila dapat membantu saudara-saudari sekalian dalam mengatasi masalah yang tak berkesudahan ini. Karena percaya atau tidak kita bersikap konyol setiap hari. Akhir kata, karena ini sudah jam 1 malam dan tugas-tugas saya masih menumpuk untuk penelitian selanjutnya, Wassalam!

I Do Love A Man.

Ever since last week, i feel like want to post this but i just don't know how to say. First of all, let me explain that this post has nothing to do with disfiguring dignity or any of the parties. Let's think that this is just my thought..

I had a shock in a sudden when exactly last week someone asked me this question : "Are you a butchy?". Okay, honestly i never knew any kind of stuff like that and that gay suddenly explain himself for me, i guess he just look me in the eyes and he knows that i really didn't understand what he said. Here's the exact conversation with ummmm... let's just call him Mr. A (Because i don't know his real name either)

Mr. A: Green ; Me: Blue and lets skip to the main part.

"Excuse me but can i ask you something?"

"Yes, sure.. what is it?"

"Are you a butchy?"

*Silent* "Butchy? What is that?"

"You don't know what is it?"

*Shaking my heads*

*Sigh* "Ooh.. i thought you were a butchy, um.. a lesbian. Because you look so tomboy.. Umm, sorry but i didn't mean anything. I just want to know, because i'm a gay and i didn't attracted to girls. This is me, i always talk frankly. Sorry"

*Shock and fake a smile* "Oh.. ahahaha, that's okay no problem."

Later on i found out that butchy is another name for a manly girl or i assumed that in lesbian, butchy played the guy part. I was in big shock until this time.

To be honest, i never had a problem interacting with various kind of people like Lady Gaga said;

No matter gay, straight, or bi, Lesbian, transgendered life,

No matter black, white or beige, Chola or orient made,

I never had a problem with them and for me they are all fine. But it kinda give me a lesson that i should look more girly. Yeah, kinda hard to say the word "Girly" because i never really try to look girly or being so girly because i love who i am now, i love what i look.

Well, but i promise to myself that next year i'll be even more pretty, so no one would never ever called me butchy or lesbian again, Oo yeah! I am as straight as ruler and i am interested with Man who could make me laugh in my hardest time, who knows how to act as a man, and work hard for their goals.. Ohohohohoho :'( 

Dream Chaser.

I dreamed about dancing in the air,
I dreamed about lying on the clouds,
Floating.. Free.

When it comes to night, empty skies are all i see..
Where are the stars, where is the moon?
They hide and keep themselves safe.

I am lost unto nowhere,
laughed even i'm not supposed to
dragged into this sadness, which i don't even know why.

I can only hold onto this faith.
I don't know maybe someday..
somewhere,
somehow,
I'll get there without you knowing.

Painkiller.

Hyped! Though i didn't watch (LIVE) SMTOWN few days ago, but i can feel the euphoria still fulfill the atmosphere nowadays. I'm so glad that the concert is a big success, moreover the artist are all okay and back to Korea safely. SHINee even talked about the possibilities of holding SHINee World Concert II in Indonesia. What an expectation!

Anyway, just couple days ago i received a package. SMTOWN goodies package straight from Jakarta! Woohoo! I'm soooo happy! Thank you so much ce Meta for your time to buy me sticky candies and queue for SHINee's Hand Banner, even buying a fan with Key on it. I couldn't be more happy than this.

The package.

Sticky in my hand.

SMTOWN special edition.

Too pretty to eat, actually! haha.

Well, i'm glad. At least, this package could be the painkiller for not watching the concert live. LOL.

Bitter.

I wonder if tears comes out from my ass  ears, i might not cry my whole life.

In fact, this is really sad. I'm sad. And exhausted!

SMTOWN is just 2 days away, the artists themselves would arrive in Jakarta at Friday September 21st, 3:35 PM. Act like a total dumb for betting my luck on online quizes, yet i try every single way to go there. This time, i wasn't meant to be there. YET.

Bye - bye SMTOWN, Bye SHINee..

University life is starting to get really hectic with assignments and tests. I need more than 6 hours to sleep.

Get over it.

Asian On Air Program

You might be wondering about my last post, then i tell you about Asian On Air Program.

Asian On Air Program is an event created by Korea Tourism Organization in partnership with Korean Air and Buzz Korea to enjoy the beauty of Korea. The program is opened for Asian residents from China, Hongkong, Indonesia, Malaysia, Singapore, Thailand, etc.

Feel the 5 days and 4 nights journey in Korea by submit your video or blog and photo contest. It'll be a huge deal to win this contest. The submission ends in September 23rd (Key's birthday. Yay!) and they'll announce the winner 5 days afterwards.

Simply click here for more info, and don't forget to join and promote! Wish us all the best luck, FIGHTING!

Thank you Korean Air, KTO and Buzz Korea! ;)