2010 Up and Down

2 days left and we're gonna left thousands memories on 2010. Many things happened this year, there's some happy and exciting moments, a lot of drama and sad moments, up and down. I remembered how Eddie Tripleks said that this year was like roller coaster and i do feel the same thing. I mean, there's a lot of unexpected things happened to you, it's like yesterday you can eat a very expensive salmon dish at luxurious restaurant and the next day, you can't even eat a bite of bread.

I've trough quite enough of hard times this year which make me a little bit devastated, i didn't think that this is the best year for me, although i've experienced several happiest moment in my life, but over all, i didn't think that 2010 is my year. But trough a lot of hard times like this, i've learned a lot of lesson especially how to be strong. I used to be a crybaby, who always cry everytime i can't solve my own problems, but now i've learned how to not cry everytime i have a problems and i guess i can handle it. 

I also learned many things about friendship and relationship. I found that a good friendship didn't really care about differences between both, but things that matter is how you could build such an understanding between you. In my opinion, a true friendship is never hiding something and never make yourself like an exclusive person. It's just gonna break your friendship. Friendship is important, but the most important is how to keep your friendship alive and how you keep it last forever. About relationship, umm.. i learned that it needs more understanding, trust and honesty. I mean, if you don't have those criteria. BUSH!! it won't last too long. You can say that i have a great 8 months with him, yes, it's really great! eventhough he's really busy and i can't hide that sometimes i really want to spend more time with him, sharing stories, having a nice conversation, laugh together. But once again, understanding. I always try to not add more pressure in his life. I see myself like, i was here to make him feel better if he trough some hard times, i was here to listen to his problem, i was somebody who he can share his happiness with and i wasn't here to add more pressure to his life. I try to be as understanding as possible, although people might see me too indifferent or something, because i was like "Ok, it's ok if he's not here. I doesn't matter. He's busy now". Ok, actually that's because i didn't want to push him to add most of his time for me, so i just wait and i guess it makes me be a little more mature.

However,  2010 is going to be our past and i wish 2011 would be a better year for all of us for learning and experiencing something, to live life, and build our personalities. I feel grateful to share this to all of you. Haha.

Pauline