I think that's ENOUGH

Enough ! That's really enough! I've become so fragile lately. About everything, i'm sick of it and i can't internalize it for any longer. Indeed, i try to let it pass by, but i just can't. HELLO PEOPLE? I CAN'T!

I'm sick off all this inside problems, i'm sick of my bad anemia, i'm sick of people around me who act so weird lately like i don't know who they are anymore, i'm sick of thinking about this thing, that thing, those things. I feel so desperate now. I hate myself for being so sensitive, for being so hard to share my problems to people i should trust so i can be quite relieve. But hell no, i just can't and i just kept burying, burying, burying everything like i want to explode now!

I cry enough. I think enough. That doesn't solve anything! I almost feel like i rather die than have to live like this. That's totally sucks.

I don't really have someone to talk to because i can't trust them like 100% even my Mom. I don't know why. I don't want to hurt her feelings. All i can do to release this pain is just write everything in my diary. Such a dork. I just don't know when this all will end.

I just miss my past times, i miss having a good time with my family. Having a close relationship with my friends. You know what? I feel terrified all the time with this kinda situation. I'm afraid that i'll lose people who i love, i'll be neglected all the time and i'm afraid that my physical and mental health will also be affected. Geez.