Reflection of mine

Since i really want to start to change to be a better person, i made a list about my habits which i should realize to turn it from bad things into good things. Let's say that i am..

1. Have no confidence. Yeah.. i guess i'm too shy to show peoples everything that i actually able to do.
2. Not really dare to get out of my comfort zone. I do love experience but that's it! I always do what i can do but never try to trying new things and enjoy it.
3. Too quiet with uncomfortable situation. Sometimes, maybe people might see me as a happy and funny person but they maybe also see me really quiet and shy one. That's because i'm not comfortable with some kinda situation whether that is about the people surround me or the situation getting wrong. I could be so loud with my friends that i think i could get crazy with, but i just keep quiet with some people that i think didn't really knew me and i'm really introvert about that.
4. Way too sensitive! Yes, there's nothing i should hide about my sensitivity, many friends also admit it. I don't know why, but i often think about something *that i shouldn't care* too much and i always feel like i have a tons of mistakes that could make people hate me. I'm afraid that people would talk behind my back, i'm afraid that i'm falling in a really bad relation with people i do really love.
5. Always afraid that people would hate me. I hate to be alone and have nobody to lean on. I never want to try to seek for enemies, but i always felt like there's always someone who hates me.
6. Only do things when i want to. This is happened especially in my home. My Mom like always ask me to do this thing that thing and i always said "wait" before i did it, i mean like i never do it immediately. When i'm in my good mood, i wanted to help her to do this and that, but since lots of my time are not really happy, i always kinda lazy to do everything immediately.

So, that is several worst thing about me. I wish i could change it, maybe little by little but one good thing about me "I always did something that i'm passionate with seriously". I hope i could do it well. This and next month program =  trying to boost my confidence!