Confessions

# I'm sick with this feeling. I hate everytime i walk alone and look at you all and you don't even call me or say "hi" to me. It's like we never met and knew each other before.

# I'm totally forgotten. You all didn't realize but i feel it.

# I think i fall in a way too different world with all of you. You're trying to be a woman with all those stuffs, but i don't even ready to grow as a woman yet. So i was like the ugly duckling. 

# I confess i try to hide, you didn't chase me. We are getting farther and farther. In the end, there's awkwardness between us.

# I don't like the way you talk rudely behind people's back. I know sometimes people are too annoying but it doesn't mean that everytime you have to talk about them in a negative way. I know how does it feel and have you ever think that sometimes it comes back to us that people are talking negatively about you? me? us?

# I try to be mature but in the end it's 1 between you you (tons of you) and you, at the end i'm still the weirdest one and different one also the silly sensitive pathetic one.

# I keep it all for quite long time. I can't hold this anymore. I don't know when will you realize this but i try to speak trough this blog. I'm not good at talking to people and you might think i'm weird. I know i'm way too sensitive and i know i already try my hardest to fight for it but i just can't. You might think i'm pathetic with my thoughts but i need a clarity. I'm tired being in this situation, i'm tired saying i'm okay whereas i'm really not okay, i'm tired of pretending, i'm tired of making all of you feel worried, awkward and weird about me, i'm tired of this relation if we keep going on like this.

# Sometimes i just hate to be me. I already have tons of problems and i think me, myself, make it even harder by useless things like this. Gosh.

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