Back to blogging.

It's been a while. This past few months went really hectic with examination and stuffs. In just a few days the national education department going to announce our national exam's result. It's really frightening to be honest. Since i realize i didn't do really well last month. The fear of "Failure" is haunting. But i'm gonna shout " I AM PASSED", right? :D

There's a lot of stuffs i want to talk about. Hah, last time i said i want to change my blog look but seems like i don't have enough time to do it. It's been a month since My Mom is working on her new store in Pasar Atom, and you know.. Pasar Atom is a heaven for shoppers. Sometimes she just can't handle the crowd so she asked me to help her there. Now i'm getting used to it and i started to love it, rather than have to stay at home and doing nothing, spend my money unwisely. I love the job.

I still can't get over of being an obsessive daydreamer..

Instead of waiting, why don't you make efforts into it?

I always think that i need someone and somewhere to spill out my feelings. ALL OF THIS. Wise people said that "It's better if you have a dream than have no dream and nothing to do for life", i guess they have to change it a little bit to "It's better if you have a REALISTIC dream than have no dream and nothing to do for life". It kills you slowly but sure. I believe in miracle, turning point and possibilities, but i'm just an ordinary human, i'm tired of waiting.

You see my last post? About that video? I staked my embarrassment just to win the contest. FYI, i'm not that type of person who comfortable to act in front of the camera. But i did! Just because i want to visit Korea so bad (Anyway, i really need your help to increase the view numbers and like. Just click here!). I keep doing silly things to reach my dreams.

A friend said to me, "Your dream would all come true when An apple finally grow on Banana tree on February 30th". When he said that, it's like a big axe stabbed my heart. It does hurt yet challenging, somehow motivating. "If you put your dream too high, it'll be hurt when you fall" he added. I know the risk. Who said i'm not afraid to fall? I do want to prove that i'm not just a "daydreamer next door."

What a complicated feelings.

It's already 11:49 PM now and another day is waiting. I hope this short-thought-sharing could relieve my feelings a little bit. And, good luck for all the daydreamers in the world. Slowly take a baby steps to leap over your destiny.

Song of the day : Adele - Daydreamer  *Totally resembles this feeling*

Pauline.