Greatest Despair

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This kind of feeling that i never ever feel before.

This heart is aching so bad, though i know i should really let it go.

Why can i just accept the truth that this is not my chance?

Jealousy kinda leads me to a despair.

WHY?

I might be crazy and yeah i know they are just another human being,

but is it so wrong if i have a dream?

Is it so wrong to show how much it hurt?

Is it so wrong to admire them like i do now?

Is it so wrong to cry when there's no one to share your story with and understand you?

Time will tell, and i know..

but patience is limited.

Until when do i have to wait?

Because all i do now is nothing but crying, playing alone with my feeling, hoping and always hoping for something that i don't really know will happen one day or not.

Yes i'm sad.

Yes i lied when i said i'm okay.

Yes i'm jealous.

Yes i want to be them, and i hate to lose.

Most of all, i hate myself for not letting it go and keep moving onto another chance.

If it's me that got a chance to win world date and meet SHINee, take a selca as they did now..

Damn