Your heart cry but you said "hahaha"

Sometimes, the reality is painful.

I can read the way you laugh. That's not the real laugh that you usually do, but that's a sadness laugh. A deep sadness, really deep. There's something in it, that i don't even know what is it and didn't want to know if i'm not supposed to know. I heard you cry but you said "hahaha", actually i'm kinda touched with that. The question keep ruining my head. "How could you laugh if your heart scream and cry?"

Sometimes i feel useless because I can't comfort you and make you feel a little bit better. I've tried but i'm just too confused to do those things. What am i supposed to say? what should i do? I don't know. I didn't get it. All i can do is keeping my mouth shut and think, but i said nothing! Not even a short words to comfort you. Not even a motivation and spirit. I do nothing. I wish i could be wise..

I just wanna say. I don't know what your problem is but i know that it hurts you so much. You might be stressed, frustrated, those kinda stuff, but just remember to believe in God. Believe that He's exist and heard you cry. Maybe you kinda sick with that feeling, but here i told you something. I learn how to be strong from you, so i believe that you could face it and be strong. There's always hurricane and storm in this life, but if we had prepared lightning rod and shield, then everything's gonna be fine and no need to worry about everything. There's nothing to worry about and there's nothing to be afraid of. You may need a time to set your mind free and make it all clear.

I wish it's not too late for me to say this. Take some rest, maybe it would make you feel much better. We don't call it LIFE if there's no worries, problems, and temptation. I believe that you are strong enough to face it :) Want to hear your really sincere "hahaha" soon..