Spill of tears: Karma

Back to 2009, i started to listened to a new genre of music. Korean pop, best known as K-pop. At that time, not many idol groups debuted. Not as much as now. Super Junior suddenly came with “Sorry sorry”. The do-do-do song (DO DO DO note until the whole chorus) surely attract me. The youngest member Kyuhyun shining the most. But it doesn’t last too long. I am back to my western music taste and K-pop was like “Okay, i know them but not a fan of them”

2011, Same thing happened like 3 years ago. I laid in my bed, bored, keep switching TV channel and then my eyes are looking straight to those 5 boys. They look so young, typical koreans.  Their song is different from the other K-Pop song. It was “Replay”. It has some kind of RnB feel, The dance moves is just DOPE and the music is so catchy. They’re just different. When the song ends, i read the description and a word “SHINee” was written there. My brain is like rolling something “ SHINee, SHINee, SHINee.. ah, Minho! And Lucifer! The pretty guy in red pants!” Which later on i finally knew that his name is Taemin.

I knew SHINee at the time i still a fan of Super Junior, yeah.. since they came from same company. At that time, SHINee was just a rookie group. I first saw them with “Juliette” but i didn’t really notice the other member. Only Minho because he’s good looking and often came as a guest on variety shows. Onew, i heard his name a lot , yet  didn’t really know what he looks like. But neither Onew nor Minho, i was captured by that guy with thick eyebrows. He looks like a little kitty, so cute! His name is Key. He chooses the stage name Key because his real name is same as his sunbae “Super junior’s Kim Kibum”. Later on i also new that the fans gave him nickname “Kitty”. Yeah, he looks exactly like a little kitty!

This is my very first time being madly in love with Korean boyband. Maybe it was all karma. I used to talk a lot behind one of my friends who dedicated her life for Korea and K-Pop. Her acts kinda annoying and that’s the truth. I didn’t want to listen to K-Pop because she likes it and yeah.. i said to myself that i will never ever getting back together listen to any kind of K-Pop songs. KARMA!!

I become more and more obsessed with K-Pop. I started to know many groups, you name it i know it. My playlist used to be all kill western songs, but right now it turns to home of K-pop songs. I started to build my dreams. I learn Korean a lot, K-pop songs, K-pop dance even joining so many contests just to meet them. You can say that right now i dedicated my life to Korea.

Maybe it sounds exaggerated, but this is the reality and this is my life now. I always say that i can do all the things i wanted, but not all the time i feel like it. I'm just running from the truth and i admit it. Sometimes i feel broken and i just want to stop. Having a feel like this, do you think i like it? No. But i just can't stop. I didn't blame my idols of course, because i just try to take the positives from them like how they work hard to reach their dream. I want to be like that too! But in the end, i just feel pity for myself. I'm weird.

Friends? haha.. they just make fun of me..

not all of them i know, but i don't think telling something to them works for me..

Family? they don't even care..

Even myself? I was just like a turtle who lose its shell.

My dreams, i've built it high enough but could it be higher or maybe crashed away.

I never know..

To be continued..